April 24, 2009

Bring It

That's it. Enough is enough. This self-loathing bullshit has gone too far.

I'm 24 years old and I've had virtually no meaningful life experiences. I've missed probably hundreds of opportunities to improve myself because I was paralyzed by the possibility of something going wrong. Perhaps most importantly, I still have no job, and I've been entirely too passive in trying to change that fact.

This ends now.

Like the post title says: Bring it. You're not holding me back anymore, Universe. I'm going to change things whether you like it or not.

And you will like it, incidentally, because I'm an individual with free will, I know what I want out of life, I have a mental edge over a very large majority of the human race, and I determine my own fucking destiny. I will make reality my bitch.

No more excuses, no more living in the past, no more pity parties.

Let's do this.

NOTE: If I write anything else about how much my life sucks and how much of a failure I am, please leave comments reminding me of this post. I'm sure you're ready to read something different anyway.


Seriously, this is huge. It's probably necessary to spend a couple weeks inside my head to understand how important this post is. Since the end of February, I've been in a rather familiar zone of hopelessness and depression, one which has manifested itself before on SIT in years past.

However, at some point in the last 24 hours, a switch flipped in my subconscious, and now I seem to be back in the high energy, ultra-motivated zone that allowed me to find an internship and an apartment last year while losing 75 pounds in the process.

I repeat: This is HUGE. For the first time in over a month, I genuinely feel like accomplishing something other than getting through a day without failing at a simple task.

The problem is that it's 3:40 in the morning, but hey, I'm nocturnal anyway.

On a final note, I may use this opportunity to try and get the comments working properly, but that's not entirely in my control yet.

Posted by CD on April 24, 2009 03:16 AM | TrackBack
Semi-Intelligent Comments

That's what i'm talkin' about!!

Posted by: tommy at April 25, 2009 01:57 PM

All my comments went through except the one on the Versus post.

More importantly, good on ya, man. "Hopelesness and depression" was my address for about three years or so. It was gay, I don't recommend it.

Posted by: The Mulatto Maker at April 26, 2009 10:11 AM
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